Wednesday, 6 December 2017


I've just started a new module consisting of Neurology, Neurosurgery, and Psychiatry. The way it works is that we'd have a week of just lectures at uni, before we go on to start our placements at hospitals. With other previous modules I've done, the lectures have always been organised such that each week is dedicated to only one specialty of medicine. Like, 1 week of Obs & Gynae lectures. 1 separate week of Paeds lectures. But this time around, the Neuro and Psych lectures are all mixed up, and it's not doing very good to my brain. Because I have a very much compartmentalised way of thinking, you know?

Like in exams, I love that our questions are separated and grouped together under clear headings, for example there are 30 questions under the Cardiorespiratory heading. I like that because the headings sort of put me in my Cardiorespiratory frame of mind and prompt me to go down the Cardiorespiratory way of thinking, does that make sense? I recall things and am able to think better that way, because the heading gives me somewhere to start.

Give me 100 random questions of Cardiorespiratory and Renal and Urology and Endocrine jumbled up together, my brain would possibly shut down haha okay maybe not quite literally shut down, but potentially go into haywire, and I'd get stressed out about it. As if exam stress & time constraint aren't enough to put me in overdrive mood...

I get that the school is trying to get us away from the simplified, short cut way of thinking and to encourage more holistic approach to clinical scenarios, because it better reflects real clinical practice. I get that in real life patients can have problems involving more than one biological systems, and there are no headings levitating above each patient's head to give me a clue as to what's gone wrong. I get that. I just.... find it quite difficult.

Doesn't help that I find Psychiatry rather arbitrary. It's like wishy washy, in that there are no objective blood tests or imaging modalities or anything that can give definitive diagnoses. Also, everything in Psychiatry sounds a little too much like... me? Hahah. I can't go through a lecture without thinking "Omg same!!" every 3 slides or so.

Medical elective isn't until my final year, which is a year away (if everything goes well, inshaAllah), but we already had a talk on it few days ago so that we can start planning for our elective. We're urged to go abroad, especially places that are completely different to the UK on the culture, healthcare system, health belief fronts, so that we can hopefully come back more appreciative of the NHS haha. A part of me wants to go back to Malaysia so I won't have to think about accommodation & food and I'll get to spend time with family & friends and it's cheaper, 

but a part of me also wants to take advantage of this opportunity to travel somewhere exciting because when else will I have this chance, right?!

And you already know where I really, really want to go.....


Think about it, I'm not just going to travel and stock up on my skincare products and visit KDrama locations and splurge on KPop merchandise, I'm possibly going to immerse myself in the whole plastic surgery cult of South Korea. It's like bringing to life something that I've only seen or read in news/articles/KDramas.

And who knows maybe, maaaaybe I'll find my jodoh there?!?!?

Okay yang tu over gils I have to admit

but I won't be going just for fun?? It'll be a great learning experience, no?? I'll leave Korea having gained a new perspective and widened horizon as a medical student and possibly as a person too?? 

At the moment I'm hesitating because ugh, just thinking about having to plan and sort out itineraries, accommodation, looking up application process, researching the system, getting relevant immunisation jabs, travel insurance, etc. etc. is already giving me a headache. And then there's the language barrier, which I fear would hamper the learning process.

Idk. I'm kinda scared.

Should I?

From a photography point of view, I've always been more attracted to nature rather urban cityscapes, and because of that, New Zealand has always been a dream place to go to. Omg Zorro and I would have the ABSOLUTE best time there but to go there for a medical elective?? Not completely unheard of, but not so common either.

Ahhh idk. 

Should I??

If anyone has done a medical elective (or anything of that sort) in South Korea or New Zealand (or anywhere, really), care to share your experience? I would really, really appreciate any insight into it!

Oh and guess who bingewatched a KDrama (entitled Circle) in less than 48 hours?! MEEEEE! No regrets though because it's so so good. You know, good KDramas come and go, but sometimes brilliant ones come and leave an indelible mark in your life. Circle belongs to the latter, definitely. Ahhhh can't wait to write about it when time permits and when I finally iron out my chaotic thoughts about it.

Saturday, 2 December 2017

King's Cross Tunnel

How have I just recently found out about this tunnel when it's existed for more than 3 years now?!?!

Thursday, 30 November 2017

God's Own Junkyard

Bright neon lights, in my book, are only ok if there's an akak donning tudung bawal selempang and short sleeved tshirt by my side, ready to take my tomyam order. Otherwise they're obnoxious and unbearable.

Yet I found myself in this little neon wonderland one weekend...

God's Own Junkyard is this warehouse full of dazzling neon lights, signages, and shimmering disco balls. If you're a fan of anything & everything neon, then this might just be your definition of paradise! They don't allow big cameras inside unfortunately, only phone photography allowed. So I only managed to snap photos (using Zorro) from the entrance.

Since I was alone I had to work up the nerve to get a stranger to take a photo of myself. I'm actually really shy in person ok. Also this photo looks fake, like I've been photoshopped onto the picture, haha! But I'm telling you, it's real, it's just that the stranger cropped out my legs so I look like I've been cut out from a different photo and pasted onto this one lol

Me : I'm waiting for my man
Also me : (runs for the fire exit when a guy so much as breathes in my direction)